The worLd ThRu My EyeS…

I do not believe that people should be held accountable for the words they say under circumstances that require the utmost delicate touch. I do not hold myself responsible for the stupid things I may have done in the past for I did it out of carelessness, something all humankind is bound to do. I find myself guilty of not taking responsibility for measures i have taken that are beyond my own. For the lives I crushed for no reason that is reasonable. I ask that you only see the flesh that i have been born into and seek within you what I hope you see fit in me to forgive. I have tried and unfortunately not survived. I have searched and unfortunately I have not been found. See me from where I see myself and all others around me, from the far distance of imperfection. Watch with me as we conquer the critisism and backstabbing of the crowd. March with me into your nightmare and I promise you, I’ll hold your hand through it all. We’ll defeat demons and travel mountains, we’ll swim seas and walk through valleys, trust in my imperfection as I will yours and never again shall we fear how we have done another wrong.

Where do fairies fall in love?

Maybe in a little haven where they escape from reality;

Maybe in a land where they are free;

In a land filled with love, with flowing rivers or honey and pretty little birds.

Maybe that’s where fairy tales end,

To be lost in the symmetry of eternal love,

To forever have something that should never have been there.

Maybe it’s being lost in surrender,

Accepting that there is no other option,

Maybe it’s all just a dream,

One we’re never supposed to bear.

Shall I forever dwell in this twilight?

Where dreams are left to be in slumber.

Where only a glimpse of beauty can wash my glare,

Where eternity doesn’t need to be shared.

The cross between night and day,

Where the sun and moon share the sky,

Where all beauty of creation combines.

Let’s pretend it lasts more than just a simple moment,

Imagine how the moon misses the warmth of the sun,

And the sun, the cool beams of a lover’s light.

Imagine their anticipation for that one moment in time,

Let’s pray they have a chance,

At least one lifetime to live to love.

Im missing the wake of the day and Im missing the time I let slip away but nothing feels as bad as the screaming in my heart. The final phases of this evil little test.  Twisting and turning in thoughts of paranoia, tiny little fractures just hurting my head. Is this all a plan or is it all just clinging on by the skin of my teeth. Is it all wrong in the eyes of the world, does nobody see me standing here? my heart all bare. left hanging again on a line so fine i dont think its gonna last. still i hold on, keeping the dream alive. Still tryin to believe everything you told me to make this feeling alright.

There is no point to being bitter,

Your bitterness will not get you anywhere,

There is no point to being miserable,

Your misery will not get you anywhere.

Life is full of ups and downs,

Only for us to grow wiser,

Use your anger to remind you of what you do not wish to be,

And learn from each baby step you take in life,

Slowly so that you may one day reach the stars.

Through all my burdens, i thank you. Through the time i was lost and chose to sit and cry, I thank you for lending your hearts. I was searching in the dark all alone for something that loved me with no conditions, for someone who didnt look for any flaws in me. I was drowning slowly in the depth of my own little tragedies. I thank you for allowing me to be myself, for accepting evrything i set infront of your eyes for i think you should know that i gave you what i hid within me for so long. I showed you who i was capable of being and you helped me realise that its ok. I thank you for showing me the path in which i am to follow, i thank you for taking my hand so gently and whispering in my ear that it will be okay. i thank you for opening my eyes to the world that has gotten so close to destroying me and awakening my life to lift my head and let go of the things that should not matter. Thank you for showing me that it wasnt just me who was different, that its ok to be annoying sometimes. I love you all so very much and dedicate this to all of you.

CoMe along with me and we’ll dance in a dream, we’ll see the world and all its beauty. We’ll steal a day, a year or maybe a life time but it won’t seem like forever cause we’ll be lost in love. Come with me and pretend time is still, hold me close and hear the breeze. We’ll dance in silence with noone else around, lost in love just one more time. Lets wish a simple wish to one day hear the air, to one day slip into this silence and live life without a care. With nothing but love on your side to keep you warm and safe,lets pretend this dream has come to life. Let me steal just a moment of your time and let me believe that for that moment you are only mine. Let me show you the life I see, let me show you what its like to live in your own mystery. All we need is silence,no words need be said. No words to harm us and bring the evening to its death. We’ll create a long song with nothing but the wind and sing it together not knowing any lyrics. We’ll have our time and then we’ll say goodbye.

Ive been travelin trough this life,

Takin in all the surprise,

That God puts before me,

Have you ever had a dream?

Where the princess doesnt live through it all..

Its a simple little thing,

Just takin it all in,

Lets wander in it all,

And believe We’ll all just learn,

To love..

Its hard to see, life was meant to be this way,

Time to look past all the years that are lost,

Lets let go of regret and say goodbye to all those could haves,

Lets just try to live life, to the full, Though it may be cliche and it all seems to fade,

Just have faith..

Just have faiiiith..

Lets talk about a love so divine, about two hearts in one combined, it may seem to sound cliche.. but give it a chance and then you’ll see, that all sweet moments end in tragedy… Just kiddin ppl,  im not gna tell yal da end of this story specially if its a sad one, not doin that today.. I’ll leave yal to wonder bout the story that has not reached its end…

It was a stolen space in time when two souls cheated fate’s eye, it could have been fate’s compassion or some plan of the angels in heaven to allow us sweet memories to take flight.. it was a trick it seemed to see what could come of it, but these two learned to love the way they never knew possible.. It was selfless in so many ways, it was like redemption finally made clear. It seemed that all our prayers were answered for those few moments, those simple few fragments we stole. Though we knew of the fate to come, like death waiting outside our door, we sipped our time slowly and just continued our little game of pretend. We dreamed things we never allowed ourselves to dream before and drifted off into our own little world, with choclate rivers and a pig farm, seems quite silly now that im alone. Not to worry, im not wearing this frown anymore, Im lifting it up and leaving it to write on its own. Who knows what fate may bring, god has us in his plans.. we just need to see if we will be one day together again.. Goodbye for now, and know that this is not yet the end..

Angels cried and covered their eyes to keep from believing what was happening that night, they shielded themselves from the truth with their graceful wings and took flight when it was too much too bare they came back after a while and told me to say goodbye. They said it was time to leave. I swallowed my pain and wiped my brokenness away promising them to be stronger cause I didnt believe that it wasnt me who needed to be better. They tried so many times to take me away, so many times so i wouldnt have to bare this pain but i always asked them for one more day just to make sure you’ll be safe. It doesnt matter how much i break, how much i bleed or how much i take. I will never leave you knowing you’re not okay.

I truly believe that the angels can see all these things that are happening, they try to help but do not succeed because they are only the nets. They catch us when we fall and only manage to try to guard us from it all, make sure that we stand up for what we need. They couldn’t possibly stop what  they knew would be happening. So I’ll leave this request, of this one last chance to hide myself. I’ll stay here on earth just for you and bleed these tears only on my own.Forgive me for all that ive done, lets just pretend I’m not around so you don’t have to help me when I fall face down.

starin into the light wonderin if i shud walk in; knowing of the pleasent emotions that will take over me. maybe i like this thing i feel; this rotten feeling that refuses to leave. my dreams of life and all its wonders have turned to nightmares of me lost in my darkness.

all i knew once to be there when im down, have let me falling into the ground. i have tried too many times to pick myself up, to stitch back my heart and replace some of its parts.

throw me to the ground once again, so ill feel your warmth, just that one split second and it will remind me of these feeling’s worth. i see your eyes burnin in mine,i feel your heart beat faster each time. You’re enjoying this more than ever, you’re feeding on my sheer effort.

Throw me a bone atleast, and make me feel cheap. Do anything you can so ill learn to hate you. i cant pretend that you dont complete me, cause evrything you say makes everything brighter. Even if its a lie to shoo me away i convince myself u want me stronger.so i bite my lip and go to sleep hoping ill wake up a lil more than incomplete.break me so ill move on, hate me jz a little bit more. push me an inch so ill fall a mile, off a cliff maybe so the pain will only last a little while.

Worry not your little head, i know your heart can always mend, ill be here till the very end. Mindless thoughts are all these are, all my energy pushed too hard. take this not as how i really feel, its far from how it truely is, i just feel like ryhming painful lines, to find a way to shed tears that dont blind. so here you go, this is the tale of a girl  once hurt so bad she couldnt see clear. omg! this is so wierd! haha…